I knew him too, his wife left him for his brother. BEFORE the accident!!

i think i heard a song about this

my dad always told me growing up that he thinks the biggest crime he ever brought committed was bringing me into this meaningless world, cursing me with existence. i think it had a profound impact on my worldview.

he’s probably right.

my dad has a philosophy phd so i trust his opinion!!! its all over my head!!

i do think about this sometimes and sometimes it does get me down

how come you always find cheap ballpoint pens, but you lose your expensive pens!

don’t let it get you down hun

that’s a shame hm, have you ever attempted to conceal these negative feelings under a veneer of happy go lucky observations and clichés.

if not, oh well, swings and roundabouts!

if you saw someone drowning, and it was only 55 minutes after you had eaten, would you have to wait 5 minutes before diving in to save them?

usually i don’t think about it. i’m getting ready to go to the store and trying to figure out what brand of toilet paper is best!!!

often you both die and that is a worse tragedy :-(

we all know who painted the ceiling of the sistine chapel, but who did

the floor?

i like the mountain goats because i can relate to the songs about abusive families, john darnielle is good at that! but then again neko case makes pretty good music too!!!!

dying...not good.

unless it is adolf hitler

I hung out with a bunch of people born in 1985 this weekend and didn’t feel at all depressed by their seeming lack of real cynicism. they were all humanities majors about to graduate from NYU. I was just a drunk old man who hated his job. I should probably have felt MUCH worse than I did, but I didn’t. It was an odd sort of epiphany, that I didn’t get all down about it, that I’ve accepted that I’m about to hit 30 and not had two kids and bought a lovely home and written a screenplay and started my own record label and toured japan as part of a two-man noise unit. I was never going to pull that off anyway. I have mostly what I really want, if I wanted the rest so bad I would have gone and gotten it.

Forget the floor, the walls are covered in fabulous paintings by very well-known artists and nobody even looks at them. (x-p)

at these times we are happy with our lot

The forest behind my house is by a well-known “artist,” too. :)

forildo whenever i get depressed about not being 20 any more all i have to do is be in the same place as a bunch of 20-year-olds and i am cured quicklike

Nothing we can do about it dudes! I listen to this Buddhist CD I bought when I feel this way, about living in the present moment and accepting stuff, it’s good advice.

I’ve accepted that I’m soon gonna be 31 and am still excited about a Transformers film coming out.

I hung out with a bunch of people born in 1985 this weekend and didn’t feel at all depressed by their seeming lack of real cynicism. they were all humanities majors about to graduate from NYU. I was just a drunk old man who hated his job. I should probably have felt MUCH worse than I did, but I didn’t. It was an odd sort of epiphany, that I didn’t get all down about it, that I’ve accepted that I’m about to hit 30 and not had two kids and bought a lovely home and written a screenplay and started my own record label and toured japan as part of a two-man noise unit. I was never going to pull that off anyway. I have mostly what I really want, if I wanted the rest so bad I would have gone and gotten it.

— TOMB07 (tombo...), February 20th, 2007. (trm)

dear ILX,

TOMBOT > you

love,

pete

pete otm

September reverses & the equinoxes flip

winter slides into fall

when glimpsed in leaps of nine months or more

the seasons reverse

they spring back & fall forward

they reshuffle when you touch down after long intervals

September reverses & the equinoxes flip

summer becomes spring

the seasons reshuffle

at a span of a year & a half

September reverses and the equinoxes flip

they reshuffle when you touch down after long intervals

September reverses & the equinoxes flip

winter slides into fall

they shuffle because it’s been more than two years

first seeing you in a snowbank

then a sweater

then a swelter

they reshuffle with leaps of some time

or reshuffle with leaps of distance

xpost, whoa! is that a song or just a poem?

i was born in 1985 and i constantly have the feeling that time is running out, i’m getting older, what if it’s too late to do all these things i want to do or feel i should do already because the time for those decisions is past...OLD! OLD!

it would really be nice to hold onto a sense of the ultimate tragedy of life instead of feeling like i’m to blame if i don’t make the most of it. i don’t really think it can be fully satisfying to live only one life for only 70 years. i want another! we should not be resigned to having only ONE meaningless short existence!

what buddhist cd is it, jel?

maria, you’re right! i was born in 1984... it’s too late!

there’s a joke somewhere and it’s on me

Maria, it’s a song called “September Reverses” by Gastr del Sol.

I JUST GOT ID THEFTED WTF

hey maria i’m the same age as you and i’m pretty much always convinced that i’ve boxed myself into some shitty corner due to poor decision making back when i shouldn’t have even been allowed to make decisions that would impact the rest of my life, but i’ve found that gin helps quite a lot.

alex otm

Someone (Martin Amis?) once savaged a nice nature-essayist by calling him “a trivialist, whose job it is to remind the New Yorker’s mostly urban audience that spring follows winter, and summer follows spring, and so on.” Or something like that, I paraphrase. I think it was unfair, personally — and in any case it’s not nice to beat up on the less talented — but there you go.