thread for being sad, yet determined

I'm a bit down because I told myself I was gonna cut back on drink and smoking and only allow myself to vice it up on weekends. The first 3 days I was great - I had nothing, and I exercised heaps. Then I slid a bit and was having one drink, abd blowing out on the weekend.

This week I've been shithouse, and actually got blind drunk last night, and it isnt the weekend yet.

My house mate quit smoking and he's really working hard at it so I feel like a lumpen failure now :(

It doesnt help that basically I dont WANT to quit either vice completely.

But, I am determined to stick at the exercise and good eating Ive been doing... I AM going to lose 5kg!!

On the train home last night, my body took a sudden quick in-draw of breath and I realised I hadn't been breathing properly at all all day. Really really need a new job, but the idea of having to go through the rigmarole again of trying to find something and applying for it and attending interviews is unbearable really. Till then, I've no idea how I'm going to be able to survive on the amount of potential earning commission I'm on at the moment - I'm worried I won't be able to afford to make it into work in the new year.

Anyone got advice on switching careers? All I know is I just can't keep on doing sales, but as that's the main experience on my CV, I know that's all recruiters will be wanting.

It doesnt help that basically I dont WANT to quit either vice completely.

― Leave town with an orange, and pretend you're laughing at it. (Trayce), Friday, 9 December 2011

Maybe bad advice here but I don't think its a problem you don't want to quit both completely

If you want to quit something completely then its kind of all or nothing, so a slip is a pretty big deal

If you want to manage or compartmentalize something its just a matter of finding the right balance for how you want it to be. And things can be done in stages - how about instead of no midweek drinking/smoking you start with no midweek drinking/smoking on MON-TUE-WED but also you make MON a day where a specific other thing happens, same for TUE and WED. then monday is thatday, where that thing happens, which means there can be no drinking that day

then later throw Thurs and Fri in there (wait, friday isn't midweek don't throw that in there!)

Thanks thats some good advices :) I can only keep pushing myself!

;_;

complaints:

this time of year sucks. the shortness of the days scramble my head in bad ways more with every yr

i don't like christmas

Pay day on the 21st. I've been scraping by literally all month on credit cards. Loads of bills, christmas presents and no doubt will be poor again by New Year. My resolution is to pay back my overdraft this year.

Insomnia is driving me crazy! This is the first time in my entire life that I ever suffer from this. Has been going on all month too. Leads to depression.